As with all good things, once I declared the end of the blog I immediately missed it and backpedaled in my mind. I've been thinking about it all week and here is the problem with ending a blog: that's a LOT of your life to just delete. It isn't like a paper journal where you can just shelve it and let it gather dust until you want to read or use it again.
I just got tired of taking and editing photos of my stuff (started to feel more like work than fun) and for whatever reason I was feeling very, very awkward about the content dealing with my pregnancy and loss. Every time I thought about it I felt very naked, indeed.
But jeez, when I think of deleting it all, I feel sad! I guess I want to be a part of this community more than I realized. Plus, every single day of the past week I've found myself doing/making something and composing a post in my mind to go along with it. I have quilt blocks and ornaments and cookies and a decorated tree to share...and I guess I forgot that since I don't do a ton of socializing in 'real life' the internet is where I go to share this stuff with my friends.
So is it ok if, rather than ending it now, I just declare an extended break, say until the new year? I'll take this month to rejuvenate myself and figure out what I want to do. Maybe I can learn some web design stuff so I can make this page look more interesting - for me and for you. Perhaps I can finally search out a good place in my house to take natural light photos of my projects, rather than just throwing them on my dining room table and then trying to adjust the lighting in my very elementary photo-editing program.
I guess what I'm saying is, rather than ditching the blog, I'd like a chance to make it better instead. Yes? No?